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It had certainly been a complicated week, hadn't it? Luckily, it had ended before the weekend, and Lucifer, Duke and Octavia had had all Saturday to recover.

That didn't mean Lucifer hadn't been slightly surprised that Octavia was still game for date night. But he had grasped it with every bit of enthusiasm he could foster. And yes, that did mean dinner had featured a genuinely ridiculous amount of tropical fruit.

"Suppose I should've put a protein in there," he mused, settling back and eyeing his empty dessert bowl with satisfaction.

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Date: 3 May 2023 14:35 (UTC)
okteiviakom: ([neu] neutral ground)
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Way to confuse a girl, Lucifer.

Octavia frowned faintly to herself.

Date: 3 May 2023 14:52 (UTC)
okteiviakom: ([neu] new patterns)
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"Oh," Octavia breathed, softly. Her eyes opened again, finally. Blinked a few times. Shaking something off.

(Saying goodbye to something that seemed to slip away from her.)

Date: 3 May 2023 14:59 (UTC)
okteiviakom: ([neu] shower fresh)
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It was...

Disappointing.

Somehow.

Octavia wasn't proud to recognize the feeling. She let out a little sigh, but it felt forced, not quite fake but not quite not. Felt like a disconnect.

Date: 3 May 2023 16:25 (UTC)
okteiviakom: ([neu] new patterns)
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"Nothing."

Well. It was true in the sense that Octavia losing her footing wasn't 'wrong' as in 'out of the ordinary'. She was covering for it, anyway. Or trying to, trying to tilt her head against his.

Something to stop him asking.

Date: 3 May 2023 16:39 (UTC)
okteiviakom: ([neu] messes ahead)
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Octavia had come back to herself just enough to wonder how much damage it would do to just get up and leave.

She didn't make the same risk assessment for responding to his loosening grip by slipping out of it entirely - which was what she actually did, returning to her original seat next to him. "Thanks for the massage," she murmured as she settled into a lean against his side. "It was nice."

She hoped it didn't sound (and feel) as stilted to him as it did to her.

Date: 3 May 2023 16:53 (UTC)
okteiviakom: ([neu] new patterns)
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And Octavia was beginning to feel embarrassed, so at least no one was having a good time.

She was just trying to fake her way into being relaxed, now. Or something. She didn't know.

Date: 3 May 2023 16:57 (UTC)
okteiviakom: ([neu] I am tired I am weary)
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"Not really," Octavia murmured. "Thanks, though."

Date: 3 May 2023 17:07 (UTC)
okteiviakom: ([neu] new patterns)
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But leaving was just about the only thing Octavia wanted to do now, especially when he forced her to give up her crutch of a pretend-comfortable lean against him.

Because now she was just... sitting in it, feeling naked in all the wrong ways.

Date: 3 May 2023 17:14 (UTC)
okteiviakom: ([neu] shower fresh)
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That didn't make Octavia look any less miserable.

She just had her hands awkwardly in her lap, and an increasingly uncomfortable feeling in her chest.

Date: 3 May 2023 17:21 (UTC)
okteiviakom: ([neu] big breath)
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Deflating further, Octavia looked down at her hands - or, towards them, at least.

The embarrassment (shame, really) wasn't going anywhere.

"Then why did you take me there in the first place?"

Date: 3 May 2023 17:30 (UTC)
okteiviakom: ([neu] I am tired I am weary)
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"Right," Octavia said, barely louder than a whisper.

Why did this feel like her own fault, somehow? Rationally, she knew there was no reason to blame anyone.

Date: 3 May 2023 17:35 (UTC)
okteiviakom: ([neu] i had a dream once)
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Octavia looked up, finally. The movement of her head was sharp, but her expression... was just tired.

"And what if I'm ashamed, Lucifer? What then?"

Date: 3 May 2023 17:48 (UTC)
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"Because..."

Oh, was there supposed to be a clear, verbalizable answer to that question? Because Octavia was clearly stumbling.

"Because -- because it's hard coming out of that space. Especially with... nothing to show for it." The word she might have been looking for would have been 'catharsis', but, even smaller words were hard right now. "And it just, it just feels embarrassing, like you're waking up to finding out you've been making a fool of yourself in your sleep and someone's been watching you the entire time."

At which point in that had she started wrapping one arm around herself under the water? She wouldn't have been able to say.

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