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my_own_advocateLucifer | There was no real reason to stick around Los Angeles. And Lucifer knew that Octavia and Duke were eager to return home to Fandom, but he... found that he couldn't. Perhaps it was the dawning realization of just how irreparably broken he was. Perhaps he was just waiting for them to realize that. Or perhaps it felt like he had unfinished business here. It was that last thought that brought him back to the precinct, around the Detective's lunch hour. Going for a stroll, he'd told his partners, and he wasn't sure why. He wasn't sure why about any of it. |
Chloe | To say Chloe was still rattled would be an understatement. The past two weeks had been a sudden wrench in her predictable life, the way... the way her life had been back when Lucifer had still been here. She dealt with it the only way she knew how: by working. She sat at her desk, flipping through a file as she idly made her way through a sandwich. A shadow fell across her desk. She looked up. "...Lucifer. What, uh." She fidgeted with her hair. "...What are you doing here?" |
Lucifer | "I wanted, ah, to check in on you," Lucifer said slowly. "The last few times we tried to talk, well, we never quite got around to talking. And... we do have some unfinished business I need to settle." |
Chloe | Oh. Oh. Oh, she knew what this was about. "Okay, yes," Chloe said, "We should talk. Uh... it was a spur of the moment thing, we were both... we hadn't seen each other in a while, and..." What were you doing, Decker? She rubbed her face. "And I missed you," she said quietly. "And I know it's my fault you've been gone for so long, that I asked you to, but, but I'm over it, and it was stupid to keep you away for all this time. And I'm sorry. I know you've been waiting, and..." |
Lucifer | "Detective," Lucifer interrupted her, holding up a hand. "It's fine. It was the right decision, actually." He let out a quiet sigh. "I've come to realize," he said, "That my Father being who He is, and the way I was raised being... what it was... that I'm incapable of love." |
Chloe | ... Wait, what? "I-- sorry?" Chloe said. "...What are you saying, Lucifer? Because that... that doesn't sound right." It definitely didn't sound like the man she'd known and worked with for five years. |
Lucifer | This would really be easier if all these humans would just accept reality instead of fighting him on it. "And so even under ideal circumstances, it wouldn't be right for me to... to follow your lead here," he said softly. "Because I know you'd need it." |
Chloe | "Lucifer, you're not incapable of love," Chloe said. Had he talked to Linda about this? He really should talk to Linda about this. "I don't know where that's coming from." |
Lucifer | "It doesn't matter." None of it did. Lucifer took a deep breath. "And things have changed, as well," he said slowly. "You know Octavia and Duke. They aren't merely my friends anymore, we're-- involved. I've told them it's better for everyone if we break it off, in the light of... what I'm like, but..." He steeled himself. "They refuse to so far," he said. "And since I don't have the capacity to make these decisions with my heart, I think... I think my head needs to acknowledge that it's not fair to them or to you if I... if I toyed with your affections accidentally, or..." Why was this so hard? |
Chloe | Chloe was silent for a while. Part frozen at that revelation, part just... not wanting him to hear her heart cracking. "I understand," she said, looking down at her paperwork. "Glad we, uh. Glad we have that worked out." Woman up, Decker. You've missed him either way. "But... but I want you to know that... I'd like it if we could be partners again," she said. "Or... at least... if you want to tag along on a case, you're welcome to. I... I don't need space anymore." |
Lucifer | "Okay," Lucifer said slowly. "If... if you're certain." |
Chloe | "I'm sure," Chloe said. She was surprised by how much she meant it. "I... really missed you, Lucifer." |
Lucifer | He smiled the tiniest smile. "And I you, Detective." |
[[ can be open for phone calls. wrapping up some loose ends, woo ]]
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Date: 8 Jul 2021 21:40 (UTC)no subject
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Date: 8 Jul 2021 21:49 (UTC)"Everything I told you last week holds true," she murmured. "None of that's gone away. Yu laik ai skaifaya. My Lucifer. And the only thing hurting me right now is the idea of you leaving me because you worry about hurting me in the future."
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Date: 8 Jul 2021 21:51 (UTC)"Is that your way of saying you'd like to sleep on the bed again?"
Sometimes half-jokes were easier.
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Date: 8 Jul 2021 21:57 (UTC)She would very much like to sleep on the bed again, actually, but she wasn't as quick to switch gears to half-jokes as he was.
"It's my way of saying I'm not ready to give you up, so don't you dare try and make me."
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Date: 8 Jul 2021 22:00 (UTC)"All right," he said. "But you'll tell me if--?"
What he did have to offer wasn't enough anymore.
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Date: 8 Jul 2021 22:04 (UTC)Closed her eyes.
"Always."
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Date: 8 Jul 2021 22:05 (UTC)His eyes closed.
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Date: 8 Jul 2021 22:07 (UTC)Just breathing. Just feeling.
Maybe they both needed something like that right now.
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Date: 8 Jul 2021 22:09 (UTC)Even if Lucifer had to fight off an array of ifs and buts right now.
Her hand helped.
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Date: 8 Jul 2021 22:15 (UTC)Like a mantra in motion.
And maybe it was. Octavia put most of her focus towards it, in the hopes that it would soothe some of her worries, too.
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Date: 8 Jul 2021 22:17 (UTC)Sometimes they followed the lines of the tattoos.
Oftentimes they didn't.
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Date: 8 Jul 2021 22:19 (UTC)She would take everything she could get.